[15 Nov 2009|11:54pm] azhire i'm insanely sleepy. my brain is like groggy and my eyelids keep drooping down. D: how to finish lab report by tmr like that? falling sick just before exams is really bad. coz you keep feeling like sleeping (hello nice rainy weather, you're so not helping?!) and can't concentrate at all. slept for 3 hours in the afternoon, and it's just as well, since i had a headache anw. i was really looking forward to going for goldi's 21st birthday thing today but since i fell sick i couldn't go. annoying. D:< anw i'm really looking forward to CAMP! really excited about it since we have so many new juniors. want to know them better, coz i still don't know all of their names. >___< and also the new pieces are really hard so i want to master then during that week. plus GUITAR RIOT! wheeee. kinda want to form a small group with juniors! or HH, his long awaited guitar-piano duet. lol. maybe we can play carulli. i would like to do that! ever since guitar harmonie i've been wanting to play that carulli sonata. <3 teach HH whatever theory he wants. so hopefully he'll continuing arranging! (the MJ medley was so impressive! and i really like teaching him coz he's so earnest. and it's good practice for teaching next time anw.) and yea another song to add to the nai cha repertoire perhaps? XD but a sad thing is that the y4s will be graduating so it's most likely their last music camp unless they're like HS who come back every single year for 10 years. yep, he's really amazingly dedicated. it's people like him who make genus feel so much like a family. i hope the juniors can feel this! it was the camp last year which made me really like genus. before camp last year i just went like it was another routine thing to do and didn't really mix around much. after camp it was completely different. you get exposed the really quirky side of people and become more comfortable with them. the people in genus are so easy to get along with. i think i'll really miss genus when i leave nus. (might become like HS and come back all the time, then to suddenly realise that wow i've been in genus for 10 years already! hahahaha) ok back to report! post comment

inspiration=life [14 Nov 2009|11:06pm] lxinying [ mood | happy ] oh i absolutely looove those girlish thoughts. photos. reminiscence(even if i cant spell it right) those wonderful vague seasons of life. love. friendship. happiness. faith =) started by looking at christina's tumblr. very nice!! i heart it ! haha. then continued looking at another nice tumblr gawd, i think i'm falling in love with those things. and spending too much time on it instead of my readings=)) but in any case, i'm also sorta doing this for semantics blog, so well i'm really glad when i can 'marry' homework with interest!=D and sorta find an excuse to get all philo, nostalgic, i can feel those endorphins everywhere. i'm so getting my walls decorated sth like this. soon. but more importantly, blessed. ( food for thought, anyone? i wont disappoint=) ) 8 comments|post comment

[09 Nov 2009|12:01am] azhire Skhizein (Jérémy Clapin,2008) from Behemoth on Vimeo. sorry, another vid! have to post this. it's a really interesting story. a quirky 13 minute animation directed by Jérémy Clapin and produced by the agency Dark Prince. The main caracter Henry is struck by a meteorite and has to adapt in living precisely ninety-one centimeters from himself. in french with subtitles. the "Je suis là!" at the end is cute. :) post comment

[08 Nov 2009|11:00pm] azhire you've got to admit, youtube is pretty entertaining. if not the videos, then the comments. :D CaptPoco: Widowbird reminds me of people who hanglide, bungee-jump, and do motorcycle stunts. "Evidently, the additional mating the male gets in the extraordinary fashion make the risk worthwhile." LuvOurEarth: 0:21 was funny..lol the male was jumping here and there and the female 's expression was 'Whtever!" :D Lollyta21: Yeah, considering how ugly that skanky female was, the male has to be saying to himself "just can't please some bitches, no matter what I do". the argus pheasant's dance! and the perfectly matching background music! lol so cute. (actually the music was pretty well chosen for all of them :D) the red markings on the wings of the african widowbird are so beautiful. and another amazing vid about birds- esoterical73: the smartest bird in the world isn't your expensive parrot that has learned how to repeat your private comments at the most inopportune time. It's just the common crow. They have the highest IQ of all birds. If you doubt my statement look it up on google. I've seen video of crows fishing for grubs inside tree trunks using just a stick. You have to admire these birds even though they can be pests at times. and i've just watched devil wears prada. amazing how in human world it mostly functions the other way around. but it's changing with the rise of metrosexuals! haha. (metrosexuals with strangely vertically styled hair makes me laugh. like ben's flamboyant new hairstyle for this sem! XD) post comment

[08 Nov 2009|12:15pm] evilstorm Which ONE of the following statements about ageing is NOT CORRECT? A. Ageing is associated with increased susceptibility to disease. B. The hydra does not age. C. Senescence is the phase of ageing associated with an increased probability of dying. D. All the organ systems age at the same rate. E. The oldest authenticated age at death of a human being is 122 years. THE HYDRA DOES NOT AGE, YOU GUYS 3 comments|post comment

a quote within a quote [07 Nov 2009|06:12pm] azhire “Nothing is original. Steal from anywhere that resonates with inspiration or fuels your imagination. Devour old films, new films, music, books, paintings, photographs, poems, dreams, random conversations, architecture, bridges, street signs, trees, clouds, bodies of water, light and shadows. Select only things to steal from that speak directly to your soul. If you do this, your work (and theft) will be authentic. Authenticity is invaluable; originality is non-existent. And don’t bother concealing your thievery—celebrate it if you feel like it. In any case, always remember what Jean-Luc Godard said: ‘It’s not where you take things from—it’s where you take them to.’” —Jim Jarmusch nothing is original - because you can't create something out of nothing? (laws of physics are probably applicable here) unless maybe if you are god. :) post comment

german oral [06 Nov 2009|11:28pm] azhire Es war nicht so schlimm. Aber ich hat Frau Verrys Fragen nicht verstanden und das war sehr schlecht. T___T Ich glabe, dass der Dialog mit meinem Partner gut war. Hoffentlich denke Frau Verry, dass wir sehr gut waren. ^^ translation: it was not so bad. but i didn't understand frau verry's questions and that was very bad. T___T i think that the dialogue with my partner was good. hopefully frau verry thinks that we were very good. ^^ yea. i really didn't understand her questions and was really quite lost. completely tried to smoke my way through. i really need to work on reacting to unplanned situations. but my brain pretty much blanked out. i couldn't really catch the words she was saying and even if i did, i didn't know what they meant. UGH. i hope i didn't lose too many points from this Aber naja, jetzt muss ich für meinem Semestertest lernen und muss andere Hausaufgaben machen. post comment

how on earth did i get so jaded [06 Nov 2009|02:56pm] kaiyang [ mood | so happy i could cry ] six hundred and sixty-eight days, and i have gone three days without sleep gone three days without food walked thirty-two kilometres while carrying a third of my weight hallucinated marched and run till the arches of my feet collapsed broken all my toe nails run half a marathon fed thousands of mosquitoes, sandflies and other blood-sucking creatures cursed grown fond of the smell of cigarette smoke; a comforting man-made familiarity amidst the bleak wilderness, repels horrible insects too lived through a typhoon been bitten by a scorpion learnt to kill experienced suffering; i used to think studying was suffering, but it is nothing compared to real physical pain, hunger, thirst, the discomfort of being filthy, the scream of exhausted muscles, extreme heat and cold, the battering of the elements, the large gaping hole vacated by hope become jaded lost innocence carved painful self-inflicted scars on my heart despised found out what a terrible monster i really am despaired been treated like an animal behaved like an animal fought hated killed survived i need to forget, forget what i have lost and missed, forget what i have become, to find myself all over again, to change from a battle-ready soldier who would not hesitate to kill when ordered to, to being human at last. i need to seek help for my anger-management issues. i need to find my place in the world again, a world that has moved on without me for the past twenty-two months. i need to learn to trust and love again. 3 comments|post comment

ord thoughts [05 Nov 2009|11:26pm] cjqsg When I was still in school, I thought that National Service was a waste of time. I thought that people like me should not be required to serve 2 years of military service, for couldn't we better contribute to Singapore in other ways? Spending 2 years in the army will necessarily mean spending 2 less years of our prime outside, 2 less years to study, work and pay taxes. Surely the costs of NS were too great to justify conscription - couldn't a regular army do? I don't think NS helped to change that. In 2 years, I haven't felt the existential threat to Singapore's survival that many say we face and I am not convinced that this is because of the strong SAF that we have. Indeed, although as an AI trooper I learnt how to do fire movement and clear trenches, it never occurred to me that I might one day have to do it for real. If I was a soldier, I was a soldier by name only. But if NS did not convince me that NS is necessary, it taught me many things about life. NS forced me to interact with people of different educational and social backgrounds. I grew up in a well-to-do household and attended only brand-name schools. In 12 years of formal schooling, I hardly met anyone who speaks Hokkien, much less smokes and sports tattoos. NS allowed me to step outside these gates and meet other people. For what it was worth, I thought it was a good experience. As I got to know my platoonmates better, I learnt to step into their shoes and see the world from behind their eyes. Regardless of whether I agreed with them, I came to appreciate how they thought and why they believed what they believed. Interacting with my platoonmates has made my worldview more sophisticated. It enriched my life and made it fuller than before. NS also taught me to take responsibility for my own actions and put in my best in everything I do. Unlike school, I struggled with training initially and got very frustrated as a result. I remember being the last person in my BMT company to pass my M16 technical handling test because I just could not assemble the rifle parts. I was also repeatedly shouted at for failing to coordinate my fire movement with the rest of the platoon. My failure to meet standards and persistent poor attitude must have resulted in my posting to 41 SAR after BMT. Thankfully,as I adjusted to army life with the generous support of fellow platoon mates, I learnt to take charge of my own duties and perform them well. Whether it was doing sentry during laager or cleaning arms after exercise, everyone needed to do their part to make things run smoothly. Although I do not have a natural affinity to army stuff, the tasks that I perform can mean so much to so many people. From there, I learnt to take pride in my duties naturally enough, if only to live up to others and myself. NS taught me to take a healthy and positive attitude towards life. Too often, we, rightly or wrongly, hold on to our viewpoint stubbornly and try to destroy every other position. Many try very hard to down PES and/or slack as much as possible because they are convinced that NS is meaningless and a waste of time. I learnt that this tendency to tear down everything that we disagree with is unhealthy. Even if we disagree on the necessity of NS, we can agree to work towards a more effective AI company and a more effective SAF. Even if we think that we can better contribute to Singapore by not serving NS, we can still try to create a positive NS experience for ourselves and our peers. I learnt that our perceptions and beliefs interfere with and influence our experiences in profound ways. NS, like life, can only be as meaningful as we allow it to be. Reflecting on the past 2 years, I feel very lucky to be posted to Glory despite all the training and saikang. At the end of the day, our NS experience is not judged by the number of field camps we have been through or how slacky the training was. We remember NS because it has made us fitter, stronger and better people. We remember NS for the 2 years of memories in the field, in the office and outside camp (during cohesion). We remember NS for the many wonderful people that we have met and the number of lives we have touched and changed. On these counts, I think Glory provided me with a meaningful and memorable experience; one that I am grateful for even as I feel relieved to move on with life. (26 October 2009) ... Several people commented that their problems with NS stem from their lousy superiors. I must say that the vast majority of my superiors have been pleasant to work with. Superiors cannot be expected to be perfect/most efficient. If they screw up and need help, naturally you are expected to help them. I think I have done a fair bit of such work in army, not to mention routine rounds of paperwork. I don't particularly dread them, because I know that if I screw something up, my superiors will try and help me out of my mess. Treats and good welfare now and then do not hurt too. For me, it works well both ways. 6 comments|post comment

[03 Nov 2009|10:35pm] azhire i dislike sitting next to people who have cologne. especially if it's particularly strong. actually, i generally dislike sitting next to anyone who strongly smells of something. eg sweat/BO, cigarrete smoke, fish, vinegar etc etc (yes vinegar, i'm not kidding! i kept smelling it on a bus one day. made me a bit suspicious of the person beside me. maybe it was really stinky sweat/bo or something) yet another bus pet peeve. i seem to quite a few of them. perhaps we should start a compilation, let people send in and then have drawings and stuff. then this can be published into a book. somewhat like post secrets lol. this would prob be pretty popular since singaporeans like to complain, and it's another outlet! (adding to newspapers, forums, blogs, twitter...) plus singaporeans mostly take public transport. since the government encourages us to take public transport, then they should make it better by first knowing what is so wrong with it. ^^ like making a section/cabin for people with greasy hair only, then they can lean their heads against the windows all they want. HAHAHA. (lol i obviously write lj entries mainly to amuse myself) but i like sitting on buses and zoning out. listening to people's conversations (because it's pretty hard not to listen in on them. but i like eavesdropping. i learn quite a lot of things from this. i haven't overheard really weird conversations that i wish i wasn't listening to tho.) people watching is always fun. today on the bus home there was this pair of ang mohs. the girl was being very dramatic and saying "I had the worst. day. ever! oh my god." then she went on to talk about how her groups were very annoying, and she had arguments with them etc. (i think she's most likely an exchange student from the US) and then she went on about how "these asians are so annoying. they'll just sit there and not say anything. i mean, come on..." (she was talking about how we were so passive/pacifist) and then she went on about how her asian classmates. was quite zonked by then so wasn't really paying attention. (she was sitting right at the back of the bus. i was sitting in the middle) but i was very amused with her description of this asian guy in her group who was also an exchange student from US. "he's short, ugly and wears nasty shirts" and she complained about him for a bit too. the way she included and said "nasty shirts" was so amusing. like his shirts offended her. ( asian/western? ) my piano teacher is amazingly dedicated. she has planned out my entire piano route quite a while back. (she does this for all her students) and today i found out that the next advanced cert exam is actually next year may/june. my first thought was "crap. what about my germany summer guitar trip? nooooo!" then maybe my reluctance showed on my face or something, coz she added "if you think by next year feb you don't want to take in may/june, then you can take the next on which is around nov/dec." 8D but actually i would like to get it over and done with. wonder if it's possible to choose the may exam. hope i did ok for theory and it would be interesting to start teaching piano to kiddies soon! :D 2 comments|post comment

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